To Love And Only Love..

There are times when I write to amuse other people and then there are times when I use writing as a way to release inner thoughts that seem to become trapped in the labyrinth of my mind. I have often thought I was one of those individuals who thought entirely too much about everything.

Today I am probably over thinking faith, relationships, friendships, destiny and purpose. This blog will not be funny or amusing and trite in it's message. It may well be lost on anyone who reads it. I promise I will go back to funny and amusing soon enough.

What is purpose? What gives purpose? Are we all missing the proverbial boat by being consumed by the daily operations of existence? Here is where so much of my frustration comes in. I want to enjoy each moment but I am so busy trying to tend to the administrative tasks of life that I am missing life itself. Do you ever feel it?

One of the interesting things about social websites is they give you the ability to reconnect with friends and foes of the past. The down side to all this reconnection is you can also look back and see the greatness of life that passed you by as you were taking care of the administrative tasks of life.

I have recently realized that existence is based on relationships with other people. Life is not and cannot be quantified by dollars or possessions. For many years I reached for possessions, I reach for prestige and I defined myself by success or criticized myself and others for the lack of these elements.

Much of the bounty from the years of work was stripped away in a day this fall when the stock market gobbled up the dollars and life became from that point forward a fight to the finish. The comfort I so hardily worked for was washed away in a tidal wave of economic panic.

It is only now that I begin to realize that my richness of character is formed in the most trying of times. It is only now I realize that strength is earned and peace is a gift. Searching for peace within myself has become my goal and with that I find a simple pleasure in existing. It is through this time of adaptation I have found friends both new and old are constant sources of energy, inspiration and light. It is now I find myself being comfortable in my own skin and have stopped trying to be what I am not. Do not misunderstand this, I will always strive to be better because I am better than what I am today. The minute I think the potential has been tapped will be the day I stop living life and go back to surviving life.

Each and every person is connected in some way to others. I do not believe a human being can survive in an isolated environment for very long. However, the frightening fact is I had placed myself in a bubble of safety for many years. I closed the door and windows to the outside world and now that I opened the shudders the world outside my immediate door is so wondrous and attractive that I want to experience it all.

To define myself as simply a wife or a mother or a worker is shortchanging my soul. Each of us is an individual soul created by God to experience, feel, love and touch. Those experiences cannot happen without the help of one another. We simply must encourage greatness in those who are next to us. We must not be scared to hold the hand of another. We must stop passing judgment on those who do not share our dogma or see the world in a different way.

If we can learn to learn from one another, be inspired by one another and fill our senses with other human beings I know we will have begun to experience this journey the way our Creator intended. It is not through hard and fast societal rules and commands of control that we find safety. It is through the simple act of loving one another that we find happiness. Once happiness is the emotion in the soul, the soul will begin to fill with it's original purpose which undoubtedly is to love and only love.